Angst, Circa 97

I can't believe I'm doing this again. It makes me sick. I left work early today, because i could. I was ridiculed by a co-worker because of this:
"Why would you want to go home? Don't you like it here?"
Of course I like it here, but if I had your wages I'd probably find more worth in sticking around the full eight hours. Besides, it's only one day.
I never call out. Everyone around me calls out. Calls me:
"Can you work a double friday? I'll get you into the show Saturday night for free."
I would take you up on that offer if i didn't already agree with myself that you are the most unreliable person i've ever had the good graces of meeting in my life and if I could, I would never speak to you again.
But this is all run-off. Like the water nobody drinks, we all want the big picture. Well here's your big picture.
I'm 20. I'm employed by a retailer and make shit for money. I study English at a University overrun with hypocrits and pompous assholes that don't understand the first thing about the first thing. I live in an apartment that has about the square-footage of the bedroom I previously moved out of. I want a house. Not a big one. I never want to own a large house. I want one of those houses up the street. Without the driveways, the ones where you park right on the street and walk up a sidewalk to your front door where you are greeted by your dog Skip and the modern intricacies of your home. I digress.
I have a girlfriend now, I'm not alone anymore. There was a time that i told myself and the people i was surrounded by that I would be alone forever. This could never be true of course, because nobody can be alone forever. Forever would entail both the present AND future of an individual's life and because i cannot predict the future (and neither can you), it follows that Loneliness can never be achieved without drastic and seemingly impossible strategies. I digress.
My girlfriend, we'll call her rockabilly danger. I love her. And she loves me. That is an assumption i'm willing to take based on the grounds that without it, we could not advance in our relationship. Some risks absolutely have to be taken. She is my best friend. I don't say that as:
"We are the very best. We're BFF's"
I say that as she is who i confide in. She is who wears my tears on her sleeves. She is everything about the human race i am pulling for and I could not imagine having anything better.